PLEASE READ THIS! [21 Jul 2005|12:48pm] IMPORTANT NOTICE! I'M GONNA BE CHANGING MY JOURNAL NAME. I MADE A NEW JOURNAL, I'M NOW shiifahrermon shiifahrermon shiifahrermon PLEASE ADD ME TO YOUR FRIENDSLIST AGAIN, I'M GONNA ADD ALL OF YOU AGAIN, TOO. this journal will be closed in a few days. 16 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[21 Jul 2005|11:56am] just be who you wanna be. lasst euch in keine schublade stecken, leute. there will always be people who hate you, but remember: there will be at least as many people who love you for what you are. das wollte ich nur mal mir selbst und vor allem auch euch sagen, nachdem mich diese spaßige sache gestern mal wieder zum grübeln gebracht hat, wer ich eigentlich bin, in was für eine "kategorie" ich gehören könnte und wie oft und sehr ich mich in den letzten jahren verändert habe (nicht zuletz aufgrund meines hobbys und wegen leuten wie euch.) (huhu, sorry, dass ich in letzter zeit hier immer so philosophisch bin...^^; ich habe scheinbar zuviel zeit zum nachdenken momentan. XD) EDIT: ( hier der link zu dem thread. bitte NICHTS posten da, ja? lacht einfach ein bisschen und behaltets für euch. und ja, ihr dürft auch über das bild von mir lachen, dann es ist wirklich SEHR EVIL (ich kann verstehn, dass sich da jemand drüber lustig macht. XD ) 19 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[20 Jul 2005|11:17pm] woo~hoo! XD während ich gerade darauf wartete, dass das erste kapitel von "maria sama ga miteru" fertiglädt, weil ich doch so gespannt drauf bin, das endlich mal zu lesen, zappte ich mich so durch diverse sinnfreie mexx-zirkel und -siehe da!- in einem ANTI VISU ZIRKEL fand ich ein bild von mir! XD~ es ist ein wundervolles abfuck-bild von..erm..nach dem m10m-konzert? na jedenfalls wurde es dort liebevoll kommentiert. *__* oh män. ich kann nimma. XD~ ich als truher wischl (mit bunten klamotten, oho)! XD~ wie sage ich immer so schön? lasst uns doch alle einfach freunde sein! X3 11 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[20 Jul 2005|01:56pm] [ music | GLAY ~ the frustrated ] hm. ist euch aufgefallen, dass einen die meisten leute um ziemlich oberflächliche sachen beneiden? schade, dass mich keiner um mein gehirn beneidet. oder um meine familie. oder um irgendwas tiefsinnigeres. aber so sind wir menschen nun mal. außerdem kennen wir uns wahrscheinlich alle zu 80% nur oberflächlich. hachya. ich beneide auch viele leute um total oberflächliche oder materielle dinge. aber viele leute beneide ich auch um charakterzüge oder sowas. irgendwie beneide ich jeden um ziemlich viele sachen. -___-; *sollte zufriedener sein* war heute morgen einkaufen (ich hab so~ viele süßigkeiten gekauft...O__O;) und hab jetzt ein bisschen an meinem cos gearbeitet. nähe gerade die kordel auf das mantelteil. SEUFZ. ich brauch festen stoff. und futterstoff. aber ich hab kein geld und keine zeit, noch was einzukaufen. X__X nya, muss es eben so gehen. haha, pseudo-cosplay. ^^; wir haben jetzt übrigens wieder einen ruki! FREUDE! wir können am wettbewerb teilnehmen, haben die startnummer 5! *O* jetzt heißt es ⇒ performance ausdenken! ^^; okay, gleich zweimal nachhilfe, aufräumen und vielleicht ein bisschen weiter harry potter lesen. nachdem ich gestern von ß9q2484875 gespoilt wurde, wer denn nun stirbt, nicht mehr ganz so spannend, aber na ja. ^^; ich hatte jedenfalls gut getippt. *___*V und jiro scheint boingboing zu machen...mal sehn wies im endeffekt ausgeht, vielleicht votet ja noch jemand (siehe letzter post). ^^ ich höre heut endlich mal wieder "the frustrated"...schon viel zu lang nimma gemacht! ♥ 19 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[20 Jul 2005|12:45am] so, isch will das jezz auch machen. *___* We all have things about our friends that make us slightly envious. Not in a bad way, but in a "Wow! I wish I had that person's hair/eyes/money/relationship/toenails/whatever." So tell me what about me makes you envy me (if there is such a thing), then post this in your LJ and see what makes me envious of you. ( und wieder ein jirofreundliches fond-zitat! *___* ) hohoho. wie macht der jiro? Created by ayashii and has 0 votes on bzoink! ei wie macht er denn jezz? zongzong! boingboing! View Current Results i have to dye my hair. i won't look like aoi anyway. -___- [/randomshit.] 27 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[19 Jul 2005|10:48pm] [ music | puraturi ] hoho. just returned from maga's. yesterday evening and today we did NOTHING. okay, we watched dvd (last samurai again...*___* gotta love this movie!), ate, smoked (>___<°°°) and played playstation. that's it. oh, and we painted some pictures with acrylic colors (?). it was so much fun. i love how the colors melt into each other. it makes a picture look so good. i have to buy that stuff myself. i hadn't painted anything for such a long time. *o* i enjoyed it so much. i feel good. but i also feel like i wasted oh so much time. do you know this feeling? a few days ago meg & i talked about how people always wanna do something and can't relax and do nothing. and they always make sure that they are having fun. like when you're on holiday, you go out in the evening. or you read a book on the beach and think about how much you'll tan. but you never just sit there and relax and are happy about not having to do anything. that's how people are. i realized that i NEVER live the moment. i'm ALWAYS thinking about the future. about the next few hours. about tomorrow. about next week. about next month. about next year. i'm thinking and worrying and sighing about what i will have to do. but i can never really enjoy a happy moment. if i look back, i have had many fun and happy moments in my life. but...shouldn't i be happy IN these moments and not just while LOOKING BACK on these moments because they're already gone? that's stupid. i'm thinking and worrying way too much. i should live my happy moments. but it's so difficult not to think about the bad things (or things that i THINK will be very bad) all the time. it's hard to be happy, isn't it? it's hard to worship your little happinesses. meg chose her courses for college per internet today. i thought about how the german school system sucks. i mean...she can choose any courses she wants, at any time she wants, with any teacher she wants. she can combine ALL the courses. she can do anything she wants. i'd LOVE to go to a college like that. *___* okay, that's it for today. many things to do the next days. but i don't wanna think about it. nonono. just enjoy the moment. *___* *nod* 8 lovers   ♪  ♥?

too lazy for english~ X3 [18 Jul 2005|02:58pm] [ music | schon wieder gazette~ ] oh-oh...piachan ist aufgefallen, dass die leute in meinem "tollen" sommerlayout winterklamotten tragen...nooo~! XD~ ruhe, piachan! *lach* ich hab noch ein tolles bild gefunden, vielleicht gibts bald wieder ein neues layout. *___* (layouts basteln macht spaß! *keke* *gestern stundenlang neue brushes & fonts runtergeladen hat* (bei font muss ich immer an fond denken. XD bratensaft...schrift? ^^V) womit ich mich bis jetzt heute beschäftigt habe: ► kao um ihren teru-fm-speschl-besuch beneiden (und jiro war auch da! ;___;) ► rechnungen austragen (+ schwitzen! ^^;) ► mir gedanken über mein cos & meine zukunft machen...*DROP* ► drüber nachdenken, dass kövit sehr schön war & ob jule und ich uns wirklich so ähnlich sehen XD ► planen, wie lange ich wohl brauche, harry potter 5 & 6 am stück zu lesen ► hoffen, dass maga bald anruft ► feststellen, dass ich noch sauviel zu planen/lesen/gucken/aufräumen hab. XDD ► mit katze kuscheln. :3 so, jezz müsste ich eigentlich mal die jessi und nen rotkreuz-menschen anrufen, mein zimmer aufräumen und dann zur nachhilfe fahren. ich könnte alles schaffen...außer zimmer aufräumen. ^^; nun ja. mein zweiter hunting!!-download-versuch startet hiermit. duh. ich weiß, dass es wieder NICHT klappen wird & nach 2h und 2mb vor ende abstürzen wird. hooray. love. -____- ach yomi, ich wollt mich nochmal fett bei dir bedanken, dank dir hab ich endlich die zakurogata- und dasei boogey-pvs! *___* LOVELOVELOVE! ♥ sie sind beide so toll...aw~ hoho. es gibt schon tolle html-zeichen. XD ▩ ☞ ☎ ▣ EDIT: die mexx-meldung, dass auf der ani ein volleyballturnier stattfinden soll, brachte mich zu folgendem kommentar... ich trete als freiwilliger hilfssanitäter an...wenn das wetter so bleibt, klappen da bestimmt einige zusammen. ^^; (woo~hoo...wolltet ihr nicht schon immer mal von einem pseudo-gazette-aoi gerettet werden? XD) *rofl*. allein die vorstellung ist lustig. 5 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[18 Jul 2005|03:26am] made a new summer-layout! *__*~ featuring a pretty drawing from one of my favourite mangaka (she uses many different pseudonyms...^^;) and a not matching gloomy-ava. XD~ 10 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[17 Jul 2005|10:57pm] [ music | gazette~ what else? XD~ ] wohoo~ i haven't written anything for such a long time! +___+V whatever, i could write tons of stuff, but since noone would bother to read it, i think i won't. whatever. if you're interested in me, you'll read it. ^^; on thursday i went to the kieferorthopäde for the LAST TIME! YESH~! *___* i'm happy i don't have to go there anymore. even though my teeth still look very bad and he told me i have to get my weisheits-teeth out. x___x (whee, nice grammar, shii. X__Xv) meg went there with me and then we went to the eisdiele and ate mucho ice-cream and fruits. after that, we drank ice-coffee. X3~ in the evening, meg joined us at the band rehearsal and then we went to mäcces (how healthy! ^^;). after that i drove her home. we chilled together, talked a lot (i love talking to meg <3) and at 2am i drove to MY home (there were so many animals on the street...O_o) argh. i smoked AGAIN. i know i shouldn't have. smoking is SO DISGUSTING. friday was all about the gig. well, it was cool. *g* i managed to make an intro for us with "mp3 direct cut". hohoho. very pos0r. 5 minutes before we had to go, my piercing fell out & i had to put the stud in. i like it very much, but i have to repair the aoi-piercing for animagic! ^^; well, after some rain the weather was good again, there were lots of people and the sound was cool. i enjoyed the gig so much and all the people told us they liked us. <3 there were some kids who wanted autographs from us! XDD~ it was so funny. the other bands were cool, too. it was so much fun to meet all the people and ex-teachers again! X3~ män, i liked that evening. hoho. we got 500€ for our gig...that means 100€ each! it makes me feel so good that i can say i earned 100€ on friday. with something i enjoyed doing. <3 i hope the gig next week will be at least as good as the one on friday. *O* i drove home with my parents at 2am (dad was so drunk XD) because... yesterday was kövit-time! :3~ i enjoyed it very much. had to drive to giessen by car, met kei and mivii there and we took a train to köln. while waiting for it, i met a funny guy. hoho. it was fun talking to him. ^^ in köln i met so many people/friends again...the love! sadly, i didn't take my camera with me, but i took a few pics with my mobile and -thanks to my yomi-waifu <3- i know now, how to upload them to my pc. *__* ( here they are ) i'm too lazy to write more things about kövit. well, i enjoyed meeting all of you and i'm sad that i didn't meet some people. U__U there was too few time, as always. but i love the GLAY-comic strip pia, fond & me drew. X3~ in the end i ended up going to gießen by train with kei & mivii again, max left a few hours earlier. thanks anyways, max! :3 kei, mivii, i like you very very much. spending time with you is awesomely relaxing. <3 hope we can do something together again soon. :D~ yomi & i are now officially married and sei & i are now officially...twins. XD (sei, wenn i told meg about it, she said we really looked like twins! XD) back in gießen, i had to drive home (i didn't get a knöllchen, even though i didn't have a parkticket! *___*). my brother called me and told me i had to pick him up (he was at the campus invasion in gießen). well, okay. it took us about an hour to get out of gießen because of the friggin' hundreds and thousands of people there. XD my brother was so drunk & fucked up. XDD but whatever. when i got home, meg was there. *___* AND my english copy of the new harry potter arrived! *O* i have to hurry reading vol.5 again, so that i can read it! *o*v today we slept til 2.30pm (XD). eva came and brought us some strawberries...<3 <3 <3 then we chilled in the garden and went swimming in the pool. it was love. then we ate something together with my parents and my grandparents came to go swimming, too. after that, meg & me watched a bit pgsm (HOHO! ANOTHER FAN! X3) and then i tried my aoi-costume on. UHUHUH. VERY BAD. U__U i still have to make SO MANY THINGS. x__x i finished one of the arm-thingies, but it looks SO CRAPPY, i have to redo it. ;___; *hate* BUT i got a letter from the hotel everything's all right with our hotel-room. yesh. still have to buy the train tickets for ani, though. whee, i have to say i LOVE my parents. i LOVE my friends. i LOVE meg. hoho. many things to do tomorrow. and i realized i still have to sew our ties for the fatima-cosplay on ani-sunday. x__X but. meeting meg in the evening. *O* whee, i could write so much more right now. but no. maybe tomorrow. ^^; i have to make a new layout. *___* a summer-layout. (fond? didn't you want to make me a tsukasa-layout long time ago? ^^;) and now...go eat milupa-baby-milchbrei with doppelkekse & strawberries. aw. <3 15 lovers   ♪  ♥?

*___* [14 Jul 2005|01:33am] ( DER BEWEIS! ) 6 lovers   ♪  ♥?

A QUESTION to all the german people~ [13 Jul 2005|08:00pm] [ music | sid ~ renai ] was ich noch fragen wollte... wen von euch werde ich eigentlich wo treffen? (ihr müsst euch jetzt nur eintragen, wenn ihr mich auch wirklich treffen WOLLT. XD) ich frag zwar immer jeden ca.24973493824mal einzeln, aber natürlich verpeil ich immer alles...und wenn wir schon mal am selben ort sind, wärs ya auch nett, sich mal zu sehn, ne? also schreibt nen kommi, bei welchen events/cons/whatever wir uns sehen! ^___^ shii is anwesend bei: KÖVIT speschl GLAY rahmenmeeting ANIMAGIC CONNICHI sonst fällt mir grad nix ein, mucc kann ich ya leider nich. *sigh* nya, hoffe möglichst viele von euch wenigstens einmal zu sehn...*___* *hugs everyone* ♥ 66 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[13 Jul 2005|11:29am] [ music | onmyouza ] monday~♣ hrhr...i after being at anni's, eating delicious cake and saying goodbye (TT____TT) i called MEG. and she CAME HERE. omfg. is was so strange to hug her again. the first 10 minutes we just sat there and touched our faces. XD meg/maga is my best friend that moved to canada 4 years ago. i visited her in 2002 and 2003, but not last & this year (because it's just too expensive and i don't wanna take all the money from my parents). and now...she finally came here! omg, i haven't seen her for such a long time...and now she's here for ONE MONTH! <3 it's HEAVEN. we're still best friends, you know. there's this kind of understanding and trust and knowing-how-the-other-feels without having to say a word. i love it. i love her. i wanna marry her. XD tuesday~♣ i went to gießen by train and went to the red cross info-thingie. there were 4 other nice people who wanted to do the same. they were funny and cool. ^^ i liked them. well, looks as if i can do the ambulance-thing. IF i get a place in alsfeld. have to call mr.trapp again today. *sigh* i'm so scared. i hope i get through that. i hope i don't puke/faint/scream when i see the badly injured people. AND i have to do 1 month of praktikum in a hospital. uuuh. i don't wanna. i dunno if i should do that. it has nothing to do with what i wanna do later. but i want to grow stronger. -.- well, after that i went into town (i still had 2,5 hours time til my parents wanted to catch me) and drank a strawberry-milkshake (YESH! always reminds me of JIRO! <3 X3). i went to "tanja's piercing" and bought a stud and looked for a piercing that's supposed to look like one of aoi's. i bought a black ring with a small black...eh...ball? i dunno the right word, but ( look yourself. ) it's a bit smaller than aoi's, but it cost 22€ (X__X) and i wanted one that looked good. the bigger ones made me look...strange. ^^; the girl (tanja?) was really nice, she put the piercings in and helped me and stuff. <3 love nice people. then i went into karstadt to buy 3m (!!!) of kordel (XD) for my aoi-costume (the back...i finally saw his back! ^^;) and some fabric to sew ties out of it. ^^; i discovered cheap fabric that looked so...decora (XD) and i just had to buy a m. ( lookie fabric! ) and they had reduced buttons and yarn (for 1€) and i bought MUCHO. *___* i went into some stores, but didn't buy any clothes. huhuhu, i'm proud of myself. and i realized i love the combination of PINK and GREEN. looks awesome. *__*b have to buy something like that. *g* after that i had to buy GALS! vol.2 (one of the rare manga that still cost "only" 5€!) and i went to the place where my parents wanted to pick me up and read. we picked my aunt and cousin up and went to a restaurant (i ate fettucine with pfifferlingen...AW.) and then to the open-air theatre in wetzlar. <3 we saw the "dreigroschenoper" from bertolt brecht. it was pretty good. ^^ well, that's it. *g* and sugarplum fairy are MUCH better live than on cd. -.-; oh, and my ( order ) arrived. *O* 8 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[11 Jul 2005|01:34pm] [ music | gazette ] Marburg and johannes’ b-day yesterday were fun. ^^ we ate sososo much (i ate cake and fingerfood) and i bought some ( cute accessories ) . *___* i’m totally into "my little pony"! *o* i love marburg’s shops. the h&m was so tidy and clean and clearly arranged! *___* not like in gießen, where all the stuff is lying around everywhere and you never get what you want! i have to go shopping in marburg more often! fuck gießen! XD~ how is the h&m in you area? big and nice or dirty and untidy? (yesh, i'm really interested in that, since i noticed there are HUGE differences!) well, i bought something else i have wanted for a long long long time! *happy* i found it accidentally when we had to buy some cheap flip flops for me, because i couldn’t walk in my other shoes anymore (^^;) and it only cost 3€! ( lookie! ) today i’m gonna drive to anni’s and eat some cake with her. she’s flying on wednesday morning. U___U i’m gonna miss her so much. yesterday evening –okay, NIGHT (i shouldn’t have chatted with pseu & fond! XD *poke*)- i had to finish my application for the FSJ at the red cross. but i couldn’t find my abi school report. i went mad. i looked for it for about 2 hours. then i went to bed. at 5 am. mum & i found it this morning (i got up at 6.15 again ^^;), so i could send my application in time. lucky! i went back to sleep at 7 and slept til 12. now ⇒ headache. haha. then mum woke me up and showed me ( THIS ) it was standing/lying in front of our front door. DO YOU FRIGGIN’ FREAKS KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!??!?! MEG IS HERE!!!!! she’s here in germany! and i’m gonna meet her again! man, i’m so happy, that made my day! ♥ ♥ ♥ she wrote i should call her tonight. oh, be sure i will. *___* *jumps around* okay, and, at last, ( much of the love. *g* ) nooooo. tutor lessons now. -.- BUT. MONEY. 20 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[10 Jul 2005|11:12am] what's the first word that comes to your mind when you think of me? 1. go to google imagesearch and search for the word. 2. answer to this entry with a picture from the first site of results, but don't tell me the word. 3. put this into your own lj, so that i can do the same for you. ( madsen ~ vielleicht (suits me perfectly) ) argh. these days, i hate myself more than ever. i mean...i look in the mirror and i wanna puke. yes, i know you're gonna say "meh, you're pretty, you don't have to worry" and stuff like that. but i don't find myself pretty AT ALL. my body looks...well, a bit deformed in its proportions. and my face...i HATE my face. it looks like a man's face. not to mention that i never manage to do my hair. -___-; you may not believe that, but it's really...UGH. and i'm beginning to think about how i dress. i know i dress weird. really weird. like "OMG IT DOESN'T MATCH!" and i know 99% of the people think i look funny, crazy or dumb. maybe i should change and become someone normal. especially now, that i'm looking for a job and such. they want NORMAL people. they don't want you to stand out. and if you stand out, you're NOT THE SAME. you get stared at. people think you are weird. argh. i wonder if i'll ever find someone who really loves me the way i am. every female friend of mine has (had) so many guys who like them. why?! do they look better than me? are they nicer than me? what am i doing wrong? i should really go back to looking and behaving like a "normal" girl. benni has got a girlfriend now. i realized even more that i still had a crush on him. i don't know, but i think we could have had a real cool time together. when i saw them standing there yesterday (gig) and i sang songs like "wicked games" and "durch die nacht"...the lyrics perfectly described what i felt. duh. kitschy, eh? -.- the gigs yesterday & on friday were okay. nothing special, but we did it & made some kids happy. *lol* (and earned some money, even if it's not much.) wanted to party with eva yesterday, but the "partys" we went to were just too boring. eva told me she'll maybe get a job in erfurt. i hope she gets it. and i hope she don't. because then i'm gonna be the only one who's left HERE. i'm gonna be even more lonely than i already am. please, don't go. ;__; i think i'll have to kill myself if you also go away. i ordered musterbeutelklammern for my costume. i hope they'll look good. they're cheaper and easier to put in than nieten. *sigh* today's my brother's birthday and we're gonna go to marburg to visit him in half an hour. i still need to take a shower. ^^; well, whatever. here are some ( funny pix. ) ( a quiz. tagged by emmy ) 34 lovers   ♪  ♥?

h0rh0r... [07 Jul 2005|12:36pm] [ music | dir en grey ] ( mommy, something happened to my hair...! ) ( and look at my funny fingernails! :D ) i want the weather to improve. -___- it's july! sun! shine! now! Ò___ó yesterday i got up at maybe 12 (since i had stayed awake til 4am ^^;) and cooked some rice with vegetables. yesh~ it tasted good! *o* wow, i can cook without using an recipe! *proud* XD drove to my piercing-studio with eva then. the piercer wasn't there. thank you. i couldn't buy an aoi-piercing. but i found out that i probably need tongs to open my piercing. but i don't wanna buy any. x___x after that, we went to the asia-imbiss to make frustfressen. XD i ate "chicken with red thai curry, vegetables and coconut milk (hot)". omg. it was SO GOOD. *___* i love food with coconut milk. we watched the "ärzte-dvd" and then we drove to eva's to dye my hair. hoho. dying hair and listening to the hives is fun. then we ate some strawberries with grießpudding. at 2am. XD~ i love eva. today i have tutor lessons and band rehearsal. we have so many gigs the next few weeks, wow! i hope we earn some money! *__* *NEEDS IT* hoho, and i'm gonna go to mäcces with knox (our drummer) before that. very very good. *__*~ (didn't i say i wanted to lose weight? ^^;;;) on tuesday, i must go to gießen because i have an informationsgespräch about the fsj at the red cross. dude, maybe i'm going to be a rettungssanitäter and drive the ambulance! woo~! i'm a bit scared. +___+ but we'll see. argh, being here on the net costs so damn much money. x___x 17 lovers   ♪  ♥?

PIX [05 Jul 2005|11:36am] [ music | laruku ~ awake ] ( stuff i bought_fabric_fresh fruits_(and me ^^;) ) ( quiz ) yesh~ i wanna sew something. *___* still have to clean up...-___- yomi, i bought something VERY SPECIAL for our marriage @kövit today! ♥ and the previews of the new alice nine- and gazette-pvs are LOVE. ♥ alice in school! whee~! rarara. 13 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[05 Jul 2005|01:00am] warum sind da täglich über 200 entries, die ich durcharbeite?! -___- so reduzier ich meine inet-kosten nie. *drop* argh. irgendwie is alles...komisch. sehr komisch. muss heute noch heisei banka guggn. gestern war judgement day dran. langsam entwickelt sich eine abhängigkeit. *__* und ich brauch MRD. NOW!!! in 7h muss ich aufstehn & für papa nach nieder-ohmen und grünberg fahren. halleluja. ich hasse meine haare. sommer ist toll, weil da gibt es tolle früchte. hab heute lecker nektarinen und kirschen gegessen...und erdbeer- und apfel/birne-wasser getrunken. hm. *O* achya, happy birthday nachträglich, shousan! <3 ARGH. is it love or hate? fond, das quiz mach ich morgen...oder so. 7 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[04 Jul 2005|11:23pm] [ music | puraturi ] hmm. dunno what to write. too lazy to make pics of the fabric i bought. if i'll make something out of it, i'll show you. working on my costume. attached the skirt to the belt. you know how it looks. -___- ARGH. and the arm-things are so hard to make. duh. x___x i wonder if THE PERSON got my surprise already...*keke* future=hopeless. yes, it's still hopeless. don't think the theatre-people will call me. argh. i'm SO into j-music these days, it frightens me. *listens to her cds over and over again* i started to love GLAY's "kuchibiru" even more, since my emmy-dear sent me some GLAY-commercials...whee~! they're so adorable...♥ i LOVE the one with jiro and the kids...aaaaw~ *dies* cleaning my room. mom wanted to kill me when she saw how it looked. ^^; so i'm finally cleaning it. much things to do, but i don't wannaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ x___x just wanna read, sew & watch gazette and GLAY-concerts. eating way too much. must lose weight for animagic. must buy an aoi-piercing. *___* need more money. -.- the kids i'm teaching got better marks! makes me happy! :D~ (jrock-related) things i want at the mo: ⇒MAGS ⇒M.R.D ⇒gama ⇒GLAY-white road-dvd ⇒the predators - minialbum ⇒more sid-pvs aw~ i'm in love with the "ajisai"-pv. *o* and i want the "zakurogata no yuuutsu"-pv (gazette)! i didn't even know it existed! +___+ fuck dial-up. my hair looks so....URGH. i need to go to the hairdresser to dye my roots...but i must save my money for next time (expensive extensions! ^^;;;). nooo~! hm. many gigs the next weeks. it's kövit-time soon! *__* 20 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[02 Jul 2005|07:56pm] sorry, german only today because i'm in a hurry! ^^;; yaya~ nachdem ich die inetkosten für letzten monat gesehn habe und gemerkt hab, dass ich schon wieder mehr als 15€ drüber bin (die rechnung geht noch bis zum 09.07.) hab ich mich entschlossen, mich kurz zu fassen...^^; ich wünschte echt, bei uns würde es mal irgendwelche vernünftigen tarife geben. es kann nich sein, dass wir 30€ pro monat für 3600 inet-minuten bezahlen. echt nich. -___- so ein scheiss. aber was besseres gibts hier im kaff nich! ARGH! na ja, noch gut ein jahr und ich ziehe wahrscheinlich sowieso aus. dann haben meine eltern schon mal einige kosten gespart. und dann wünsch ich mir dsl. *___* zukunfts-depri und allgemeine tiefstimmung mit viel gejammer, selbstmitleid und heulerei hält immer noch an. danke an alle, die mich aufmuntern oder mir weismachen wollen, dass ich ein toller mensch bin (^^;;;). i appreciate that. ♥ *hugs everyone* war gestern mit eva in giessen. was ich gekauft habe, zeig ich euch morgen abend bzw. montag. sind einige tolle sachen dabei. *___* STOFFEEEEEEE für BILLI~G! <3 <3 <3 nya, kam gestern heim, hatte 10 min. zeit und war dann bis 22.30 beim SAN-A-kurs (den wiederhol ich grad, weil ich ja vielleich in die richtung fsj beim rettungsdienst gehen will...wah!). gestern abend/nacht dann noch bis 2 an meinen armdingern fürs aoi-cos gearbeitet (ya~ ich machs fertig, das hab ich mir geschworn. egal wie scheisse und pseudo es aussehn mag. ich hab es meinen leuten versprochen. *hugs fü, yu & mari*) sind aber noch lange nich fertig. musste gestern für 40 nieten fast 10 eus ausgeben. X___X son scheiß aber auch. lese im moment viele manga, hab kizuna endlich nochmal gelesen und mir den ersten band von GALS! geleistet (HOHO, da is ein kleiner knick drin, ich habs reklamiert und prompt für 3€ gekriegt...ich MUSSTE ihn einfach nehmen. guter karstadt. *g*) it's love. X3~ fond, du hattest recht. <3 *love* HAHA. und ich habe etwas tolles gemacht. ich hoffe diejenige person freut sich darüber. dauert aber noch 2,3 tage. ^___^V und ich erreich maga immer noch nicht. T___T *miss miss miss* bin zwar endsfertig, aber nachher gehts mit anni ins muk. das hat sie sich verdient, ich kann ihr einfach nicht absagen, schließlich fliegt sie in 2 wochen nach irland! ;____; *anklammer* alle halbwegs normalen leute verpissen sich. wie ich es hasse. -___- was noch? ach, keine ahnung. ich befürchte ich hab keine zeit, alle eure entries der letzten 2,3 tage zu lesen bzw. zu suchen, da meine friends-entries von communities geflutet werden...*dröppl* nehmts mir nicht übel, nach dem 09. dieses monats bin ich wieder voll da. v^^; *rausdröppl* 4 lovers   ♪  ♥?

[30 Jun 2005|04:43pm] ( to you, you friggin' hawt thang ) ( i formed a funny band and found out that he'd love me! ♥ ) haha. i watched forrest gump again yesterday and i cried like mad. not just because it's forrest. but because...well, you know already. whatever. meg, please answer the phone or call me. ;___; 4 lovers   ♪  ♥?

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